APPETIZING

I've come so full circle

Done what I've had to do

When I look into the mirror

I'm lost to this new "you"

He is a total stranger

Though I know I like him best

Just barely know who he is

Cause he's nothing like the past

Got my ducks in a row

Dot my eyes and cross my tease

Provide myself a future

From the things I knew I'd need

Find myself surrounded

By a swift and changing sea

But for my two children

There's nothing left of the old me

Was driven by my vengeance

But that's a waste of energy

Driven by enemies in tandem

Then saw they meant nothing to me

My rage was like a flower

Never thought to let it bloom

Let it open just to find

That my anger was a tomb

So I left it all behind

Every last unsavory bit

Opened myself up to my heart

And a life I'd like to live

I've worked so hard I'm not surprised

By what the world has got to give

Earned it through tireless effort

And not relenting

But pressing in

Tried so long to love the world

Each new person I'd hold dearer

Just to find loves starts within

With this person in the mirror

I forgot to build him up

Take what He needs to see things clearer

All my love had just been wasted

Had to start with what was nearer

Had to find what lies within

All the talents I'd been hiding

For the cause of everyone

I had kept my heart dividing

Splitting off into more pieces

All for the cause of their deriding

It's no wonder what was left

Was hardly appetizing