FULLFILLMENT

No I didn’t - but I was doing it anyway.

I was practicing the edges - -

of the things that I couldn’t take

I had been there before

In the midst of some heartache

But it didn’t seem as important

...at that time.

Sometimes betrayal is like a free pass…

It’s saved your ass from a future of desperation and alcoholism and a constant feeling that run on sentences would be better than death

(which was life at that moment.)

I accepted atonement by giving into my “baser” needs and desires

All that required - was for me to finally give into myself

As it turns out – I had been fighting myself the whole time.

I was sure I was insufficient.

But I changed that.

In minutes

Just with the intention

To change it.

And then it was better,

Slowly.

A little bit better with each day as they passed.

But slowly.

I then started to give into it.

But then realized giving in was the point of it.

And then it took on a life of its own.

A life of its own.

That is fulfillment

When you realize that you realized your own path.

That is fulfillment.