IN IT

How do you say goddess in Spanish?

or Danish?

or German?

Diosa

Gudinde

Göttin

All I know is my heart was broken

Stamped on

Mashed And smashed upon

By heartless humans

Spent so much time

Looking

Trying to find this living dream

This woman

I knew she must be somewhere

Living,

Breathing...

My

Timid heart's been beating

Leftovers

Picked over

By the vultures

Foolish man kept looking

Kept talking

Sharing his ridiculous impossible

Dream

Heads just nodding

Drifting back off to sleep

Pacing

Emotionally bracing myself

For more disappointment

But following

Always allowing

For her possibility

Always knowing

She's real

Despite everything

She's waiting

I just had to be diligent

Insistent

Consistent

"Keep going"

Then the happening

Happened

Everything stolen

- Taken.

Frustration

Fighting to revive something

That was 8 feet under

Signs and wonders

Took over

Sent me reeling

Spilling

Into cathartic splendor

Self evolving

Surrender

Pressing onward

Into this green valley

Found out

It is in fact greener on the other side

Out there somewhere

Was my latent bride

Getting closer

It wasn't just I who chose her

She told me

She showed me

Made me promise

All along - this dream

Closing in

On my everything

Devoutly honest

Kept digging in

Kept hoping

Breathing in

Knowing

We were about to be

So close to me

My pulse would be

Racing

Started second guessing

My sanity

And then the span of me

Came crushing in

To a moment

To an even exchange

Found my reflection

Sitting there

- Reflecting

Saw it in her eyes

In a stupor

I rambled on

Speaking from the quiet

Then like testing the waters

Stuck our toes in

Then legs in

Then knee deep

Now we've plunged in

Floating

Love.

So overwhelming

I swoon

Unbelievable

There's no doubting it

Just try hard

Not to vomit

From minute to minute

My blood won't stop racing

My heart slamming

In my chest

I cannot imagine

One more minute

Without you in it