JUST BEGUN

I look back at my old life

Such a mockery of me!

Such a cheap imitation

Of the man I'm proud to be!

Amazing what I accepted

Amazed how desperately

- I was willing to overlook

All the things were done to me!

But now I've found it!

And know moreover

I was lacking MUCH before!

I accepted the ridiculous -

In hopes of something more!

But I dropped that (Eventually!)

It took some time to get away!

And what I got in JUST exchange for that

Has had me smiling all day!

She's smiling too, and perfect

I can't believe my awesome luck

She just chalks it up to karma

So I don't really give a fuck!

What another thinks - besides her

What another has to say

How could you give a fucking fuck

When you've been smiling all day?

Suddenly - I am glorious!

As this man I could have been

And though now I live

With no regrets

I'll never be - that ass again!

I know what love is – I have seen it!

It is warm and oft' receptive

It is passive when it needs to be

But is otherwise aggressive!

It speaks it's voice quite clearly

For it too - has wasted time!

It finds foundation in the honest

And scoffs at bullshit nursery rhymes!

Excuse my constant exclamations!!!

- But just to have her LONG for me!

Is so beyond my expectations

I wonder what else that there could be?!?

What else was it

I was missing?

In that land of long before?

When I gave myself to harlots

And the thieves – just wanting more?

I can't believe it!

But I am thankful!

For all that wasted time –

It kept me so available

For this perfect match of mine!

I love her though I've not said it

Except for one time in the dark

All the rest were said as whispers

By my massive beating heart!

And I know that she has heard me

We're just building towards -

- What's yet to come

But we've spent a lifetime

Getting ready

For this love that's just begun!