THE MESS

Spinning my wheels round and round

Hard to cause my own volition

Hard to take those forward steps

When I'm wrought with indecision

I know your words are right

That I should move toward my destiny

That I'm caught in all your comforts

And the convenience of you next to me

But it's hard to let go of you

With all these things we have in common

With the way we came together

Two tattoos just like an omen

How we've shared our something sacred

And how we've shared our secrets

But with all that's pressing down on you

There's no room for me beneath it

I know the things I have to do

To restore what has been taken

Still I don't want to break your heart

Or to leave you there forsaken

So I will let you in on it

Let you see the mess I'm making

Let you see from the outside

My master way of taking

The way they all are pawns

When I do them with my brain

The way they stand at odds

But not a one of them complain

They simply standby

And do what they are told

They will say that I'm an "old soul"

But the fact is I'm just bold

I have this glorious mind

Can get just what it wants

In the past I felt so guilty and

My psyche would just taunt

It would tear me apart

Saying "Look what you have done!"

But the fact is I'm the winner

When I make me number one

So I will use all of these skills

The same ones I'd use to kill

The same ones who can act selfishly

And make people serve my will

It's time to play the game

Like with him - when we'd play chess

He'd flip up and over the board

But I'd clean up

All the mess