ENOUGH LIFE

Some days I just want to be angry

I mean I got one thing

Going for me

And she's a somebody

Otherwise I just work hard

Work long

Bust my ass

And sing-along

To whatever makes me less crazy

It should be my turn

Now

If integrity

Was worth money

I'd be a rich man

I don't know how

I keep pushing

And hold on

Swirling around this drain

Trying not to be

Pulled down

Don't want to start over

Again

And again

And again

I want to be a rapper

Not a poet

I want to be gangster

Like all these other

Selfish fuckers

I want to make others

Pay for me

And just take things

But instead I have

Integrity

And while it's invaluable

It's apparently

Worth nothing

To most people

Most people

Are largely evil

They just give in

To their baser needs

So why not me?

I've lost almost everything

Trying to stand for something

I feel hope and love

Wash over me

But the water is starting

To get cold

It makes me feel old

And foolish

Tired

And stupid

And more than anything

Angry

Why can't I be baser?

Just another Debaser?

I don't want to be

A spirit filled leper

These others I know

Who walk in it

Who live in truth

They have each other

They have a group

A communal mind

Like a beehive

Leaning on

Each other's strong

I just don't have that luxury

You can't lean on apathy

If Jesus came back

He lives in a fucking van

If Mary came back

She needs a new place

With no money down

Just enough space

For her dog and a guitar stand

If Buddha came back

He lives under a freeway

Overpass

He has all the answers

And Nirvana

Neatly stacked

In a Von's grocery cart

If Magdalene is here

She needs a new car

Cause her last one

Burnt to the ground

Pretty sad

As it was about to be

Her new home

All of us

Stand alone

When compared to

This mad world

Our stories unfold

Beautiful pages

Battered and stained

Tattered and stacked

On thrift shop shelves

Discount lives

Worth little else

Than the fact that we get by

With just enough life