WITH YOU

I remember when I couldn't sleep

I would just lie there

Filled with pain and disdain

And contempt, racking my brain

Wondering how they did this to me

How could it be...

Just lying there sleeplessly

Sheepishly

Considering my future

And if I had one

If I should even bother

Breathing

I was living

In a walking dream

Dozing in and out of life

Filled with malice

Bereft on all sides

Consumed by strife

And then it started changing

Little victories

Started coming for me

Little bits like happiness

Fleeting moments

Quickly passing

But happiness nonetheless

Then the victories

Became more permanent

I would find myself

Grinning at the man in the mirror

Getting clearer

Gaining clarity

Knowing hope was nearer

Closing in on me

I started to see

Causality

Working for me

No longer a casualty

Of someone else's war

I started to remember

What I'd been fighting for

What I thought was gone

I simply locked away

Locked away to keep it safe

And now I sleep like a baby

Especially when you're next to me

I never knew it could be

The way that it is now

To be even

On the same page with someone

To know we've found our way

That we found how

In finding each other

I found me

That is - the man I could be

That "He" I always wanted to be

You found you

Started allowing yourself

The possibility

Of happiness too

And now I feel

Complete

Complete

With You