NEXT TO ME

You are my sudden inspiration

You are my random aching thought

You are the sum of all I treasure

And the love that I'd forgot

You are the end of all my stories

The punchline to my jokes

The contract that was writ in blood

The sum of all my hopes

I've always known - that I have known you

Seen your face behind closed eyes

Felt you breathing on my neck

When there was no one by my side

Felt half of my heart beating

The other half was there with you

And despite pain, lies and grief

Underneath was I and you

I will always be your champion

I always am

Have always been

Have always been your lover

And your longest, dearest friend

I shall not once forsake you

- I will never have to lie

Long as this love that I hold dear

Is right here by my side

I am guilty, I've been seeking

Searching endlessly for love

Not some thing

That was beneath me

But this thing come from above

Felt so tired from the pain

All the things that beat me down

'Til I gave up and headed east

And wandered to this empty town

Then it was like I found

The pearly gates

A land of promise, where my purpose

Suggested chance that I might

- Find my Love

On my first night - within its service

Searching for a word, the One

Whom God had shown to me

So I burned it right into my arm

Right opposite "be free"

My commitment never swerving

Searching for your memory

Searching for your honest presence

Your same persistence in belief

Know that I’ll find you - I feel certain

Despite uncertain history

There's not a thing I wouldn't do

To have you right here next to me